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Thursday, 29 November 2007

Psychological, Physiological, Emotional...Distress...
Not happy...

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 18:45

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Sunday, 25 November 2007

Tomorrow's my first paper.
Not fully prepared but I guess it doesn't really matter.
I've been a good girl recently.
Been trying to study hard although I can't really concentrate.
sigh...
I miss you. =(
What have you been doing?
How are you?

*49 days to go*

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 19:02

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Saturday, 24 November 2007

Dear Diary,

How? when the night arrives, and everything turns quiet...
I'll start to think of him.
It's kind of ironic. When I was with him, I don't think of him as much as I do now.
Humans. Pathetic humans.
Yea...I'm here missing him, and perhaps...
He's now flirting with other woman.
He's now laughing off watching a movie.
He's now sleeping soundly.
He's now ... whatever.
It's just not worth it.
But I can't help it either.

Sigh...Sigh...Sigh...

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 00:11

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Friday, 23 November 2007

Is it good or bad?
Nobody believes I can live without man.
Nobody believes I can survive on my own for more than 3 months.
LOL~...
How true is it?
I don't know.
So are you all supposed to say that I'm a loser and I can fall in love damn easily, or I'm so attractive that it's not a problem to meet good man? LOL!

What's the definition of a good/fine man?
shove aside the watever appearance requirements.
A good/fine man is someone who will love me, and whom I love.
Anymore in the world? Perhaps, none.
So why even bother to define a good man. =D

*He has forgotten me. 52 days to go.*

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 12:10

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Tuesday, 20 November 2007

All these readings are driving me crazy.
Can't wait till I get my butt out of my house tomorrow afternoon.
Going out to breathe the air and study AGAIN!

Bear with it...Xueling..It will soon be over!
It's all about PERSEVERANCE!

*note: He's not coming back* 55 days to go.

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 00:38

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Monday, 19 November 2007

The kitchen god hates me...
Both my cheesecake and pandan cupcakes failed.
I'm sad.
The kitchen god hates me...

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 17:09

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记得要忘记

在就要转身前突然又想起你
相遇的那天漾着微笑的你
那个微笑
还是很美丽
可惜那个人常常要让人哭泣

太耀眼的城市不适合看星星
就如同你的心不适合谈安定
谢谢你让我伤过心
学会爱情并非执迷
人改变不了改变不了的事情

记得要忘记忘记
我提醒自己
你已经是
人海中的一个背影
长长时光
我应该要有新的回忆

人无法决定会为谁动心
但至少可以决定放不放弃我承认我
还是会爱着你
但我将永不再触碰这记忆

记得要忘记忘记
经过我的你
毕竟只是很偶像的那种相遇
不会不容易
我有一辈子
足够用来忘记
我还有一辈子
可以用来努力
我一定会忘记你

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 09:44

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Sunday, 18 November 2007

Trying to get back the pace of my life again...
Been busy studying for my exams...
Stoning at times...
Surfing around Friendster...*and thinking of him sometimes*...
Life goes on.
Yes, it fucking sucks...but we just don't have a choice I guess.

Now the thing is, I have to get my pace back ASAP, and don't wanna be a pathetic sobbing ex-girlfriend of anyone.

People out there...please lend a hand. I must fulfill the seven commandments:
1) Sixty days without contacting him.
~~2) Look for a breakup buddy.~~
3) Get rid of his stuff and the things that remind me of him.
4) Get my ass in motion every day.
~~5) Don't wear my breakup out into the world.~~
6) No backsliding!
7) Making myself number one!

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 21:13

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Wednesday, 14 November 2007

After some thought...
I felt much better.
It all began when we both just ended our previous relationships.
I guess we must be feeling lonely.
and then we came to brighten up each other lives...=)

I'm thankful that you have come and walked beside me for the past few months.
You relieved me from a great pain...
although you inflicted some on me again...
But things are improving...and I grew stronger.

Maybe it all started in the wrong way. But we used to be happy...and that's what good memories are. Yup...I'll try to remain as your friend. =)
If there happens to be another time when both of us are ready...and still feel something for each other...we might try again, ain't it?

Life's is supposed to be like that. Don't be too harsh on things...and things might turn out unexpectedly good.

I'll remember you. and of course...I'll be a good girl this time...no more recklessness. I promise.
Mr. Pig!! Make me cry again and I'll bite you like there's no tomorrow!!! =D

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 20:23

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Sunday, 11 November 2007

Been through once...and I thought it won't feel as hard as it used to be.
But I'm wrong.

The tears never stop flowing.
Guys are so hard to be trusted.
Why is it so difficult to cherish something so hard to come by.
Why not use the cruelest excuse and tell me you have fallen for somebody else...
instead of telling me I love you but I have to leave you so that I won't continue hurting you.

Does it sound any better? The former sounds much easier for me to let go.
It's painful...It hurts...
but I seriously don't know what to do or say.
mmm...
never try again.
don't try le ba...

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 18:41

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AGAIN~ haaaaa
they said I will get into the Dean's list again...
yea right.

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 02:27

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Saturday, 10 November 2007

I should just live with the fact that all men are the same...
There won't be any exception.

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 21:51

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Thursday, 8 November 2007

To be or not to be: that's the question.
I'd rather be a single or a lesbian. HAR~

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 02:07

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Tuesday, 6 November 2007

Gerren is feeding me like a pig.

We went East Coast Park Long Beach for dinner just now. Mind you...I already had my dinner before going out. Then no choice, have to eat again =D hahaha

We had:

Chilli Crab + 2 man tous

Baby Kailan

Seafood fried rice

Drunken prawn herbal soup

Honey Dew Sago

Totaled $90 GST inclusive.

We ate alot! and I realise I no longer frequently update my photos because I've put on weight. haha.

Anywayz... their honey dew sago has got awesome presentation~I love the way they put in the dry ice...making the dessert look like potion. =)

I tried to take picture of the dry ice. But the photo just don't show the effect. =(

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 01:35

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Monday, 5 November 2007

So Creepy!!!

Just now on my way home I accidentally walked pass the area where somebody around 1 week ago jumped off the building and died there! OMG!!!

I didn't do it on purpose though = scary! anywayz I threw away that pair of shoes once I reached home. wacky hur~~

Anywayz...I passed my advanced theory. mmm

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 16:37

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Sunday, 4 November 2007

Avoidance is never the best solution.
I understood the fact.
But here, I do not know what to do. I'm lost.
That's why I'm avoiding. Sigh.

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 00:14

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Saturday, 3 November 2007

This semester is crazy.
The most tedious semester - I've been spending the past few weeks with at least 3 days per week in school for at least 8 hours rushing my projects.

I've tried doing my project non-stop from 1pm up till 9pm. I almost glued my eyes to the computer screen. Fatigue~

Even gerren starts complaining that I totally have nothing to talk to him. Seriously, what interesting thing can somebody, who have been staring at the computer screen for the whole day, talk about? Plus, I even forgot that I have an advanced theory test coming next monday. And I've yet to study. ermz. That isn't an important issue though.

But I realise gerren and I are distancing. We haven't seen each other since last...last...monday? that was my birthday.

Life's miserable. I'm better off living as a single.

0 friends commented | I coloured my life at 13:37

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